So I just deleted a lot of my older submissions on here; most were just stupid little things I did in Paint 5-or-so years ago that I thought were good, but actually weren't. I also set about editing some of my older "songs" to correct any outward mopey-ness, grammar I felt wasn't up to par, etc. It's kind of long and tedious work, but I feel that it needs to be done since my feelings are constantly changing and my life is gaining more experience, and as I get older and my viewpoints and opinions and just general outlook on life changes, I want that to be reflected in even some of the first things I wrote.
An argument against this could be that they "capture who I was" at that specific time, but I don't really like who I was about 5-or-so years ago (but, hey, who does?): I was the over-emotional 14/15 year-old who listened to Green Day and My Chemical Romance because I thought they were good, dyed my hair black, had some facial piercings, and was border-line emo. I never did anything stupid like cut myself, do any drugs, drink, smoke, etc., but my mindset at the time was very unstable and, as a result, my emotions would change at the snap of a finger from being up and happy to being down and sad.
Whereas the "songs" I tend to write now are (for the most part) very inward and personal to me, the ones I wrote way back when are obviously written by someone who hadn't yet developed ways to mask what he was feeling and was obviously distressed and going through a hard time. Part of this has to do with who my influences at the time were (as previously stated: Green Day and My Chemical Romance), compared to who they are now (The Cure, Nine Inch Nails, and Dir en grey being the main three). Anybody can compare the lyrics by Bille-Joe Armstrong and Gerard Way to the ones penned by Robert Smith, Trent Reznor, and Kyo, and they just don't stand up. One last large alteration in my life, compared to then, is that I'm not upset anymore, I'm very, very happy with my life (which is kind of a weird thing for me to say), and, long story short, I just feel that the older work needs to go through some major overhauling and revisions.
If you bothered to read all of this, thank you. And I feel that I'm about to begin writing more than I have in the past couple of years, and it excites me.
Listening to: Middleground by Vermillion Lies
Eating: Left-over Chinese food in about 5 minutes